The face paints the picture All prefer to see, No tears,no panic, Just robotic, “smile it’s free”. Seething solemnly, silence all encompassing, Internalising the screams, Release, release, stretch out and see, For the person gazing back at you, behind the smoky glass, Requires permission to grieve for the youth long spent. “Stop hiding, accept theContinue reading “It stays hidden”
Tag Archives: midlife
It’s a weight thing.
I tentatively stepped upon the scales todayOne foot, then the other, I held my breathThe digital counter rose and roseTo a resounding measurementI felt pure dismay!The excuses rained down, dripping,soaking every inch of my skinAs i began to crawl into the deep, dark cavern.I blamed menopause, the feeders, boredom,loneliness, the cat down the roadAvoidance ofContinue reading “It’s a weight thing.”
I have reached the age of … Sorry application denied
As I scrutinize every detail of my recently updated CV, I cannot help but wonder if my age has finally labelled me…. Ancient! It could be surmised that I have been exceedingly lucky to have never experienced job application rejection, until now. There is something quite raw about it. It cuts quite deep! It hasContinue reading “I have reached the age of … Sorry application denied”
The bewitching hour- a ramble
It has arrived The soothing droplets of rain tap rhythmically upon my window In the distance, the hoot of the owl creates an off beat,distorting the musical rift. And here I lay, trying to achieve my zen, attempting miserably to sleep. The musings of my brain have better ideas. A brief interlude whilst my bladderContinue reading “The bewitching hour- a ramble”
Months have passed
Months have passed since my last post The trajectory of my life seemingly not as I had envisioned. I am devoid of creative expression, intellectual stimulation, instead, running unwittingly on a perpetual wheel. Each evening I prepare the page of ‘to do’s’, listings, complete with neatly positioned tick boxes. The mundane, the routine, the lifeContinue reading “Months have passed”
Fleeting
Darkness envelops meThe chaos of the mindEbbing and flowingTorrents cascading down the rugged rock face.And I casually stare at his face as he consumes his thoughtsEach crease, each lineNot for a second does his vision divert away from the infinite glare of the machine.Therefore my visual field is unrequitedThe invisibility cloak chokes my neck asContinue reading “Fleeting”
Sometimes I wish I could say this!
There comes a time in every one’s life when they step back and say ‘enough is enough’. There comes a time when you step out of the madness and realise you are not the cause of everyone’s problems. You realise that you cannot spend life blaming others, thinking you would do it better, others areContinue reading “Sometimes I wish I could say this!”
How’s your day been?
How has your day been? Better than you expected or verging on obscene? Rainbows, blue skies and buttercups? Or resembling a bubbling volcano, on the countdown to erupt? Either way, was there a nanosecond, where you actually sat and smiled? Or was it consumed with sorrow wishing tomorrow would come forthwith? Life is a funnyContinue reading “How’s your day been?”
It has been a while….maze of the mind
It has been a while since I placed thoughts on this page My mind has become an incessant pool of questions with no rationality nor reason. My hands are wringing, my eyes dart swiftly from one thought to the next The whys, the Ifs, the if only, create a continuum of destruction within the depths,Continue reading “It has been a while….maze of the mind”
Grinch has not left the building, sorry
I wrote a while ago that I am the personification of the Grinch I was hoping through the passage of time that this would alter. That Grinch would dissipate and the replacement happy pants would appear, as if by magic. Unfortunately, I can report to you personally, that Grinch has not, I repeat NOT, exitedContinue reading “Grinch has not left the building, sorry”
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