The face paints the picture All prefer to see, No tears,no panic, Just robotic, “smile it’s free”. Seething solemnly, silence all encompassing, Internalising the screams, Release, release, stretch out and see, For the person gazing back at you, behind the smoky glass, Requires permission to grieve for the youth long spent. “Stop hiding, accept theContinue reading “It stays hidden”
Tag Archives: anxiety
It has been a while….maze of the mind
It has been a while since I placed thoughts on this page My mind has become an incessant pool of questions with no rationality nor reason. My hands are wringing, my eyes dart swiftly from one thought to the next The whys, the Ifs, the if only, create a continuum of destruction within the depths,Continue reading “It has been a while….maze of the mind”
Grinch has not left the building, sorry
I wrote a while ago that I am the personification of the Grinch I was hoping through the passage of time that this would alter. That Grinch would dissipate and the replacement happy pants would appear, as if by magic. Unfortunately, I can report to you personally, that Grinch has not, I repeat NOT, exitedContinue reading “Grinch has not left the building, sorry”
2021
Tightness engulfs the mind The demons of the soul creeping between the cracks Incessant words ricochet around the invisible walls Clasping palms over the ears to dull the sound. The deep crimson petals fall silently to the earth Their richness of tone begins to fade As the drums beat louder And the conductors snarl. TightnessContinue reading “2021”
Yin & yang
I’m feeling significantly overwhelmed this evening with a multitude of issues. Each topic has a sliding scale of impact upon my being however, all appear to have accumulated into a huge intertwined mountain. It is a known fact that we should not address our concerns as a whole due to the enormity of the taskContinue reading “Yin & yang”
Pushing against the tide.
It is another night laid awake with my neurons whizzing aimlessly. Tonight my plight appears in the form of escapism from the current climate. However much I spend avoiding outside events and attempting to live in my idealised bubble, the air always manages to seep out causing my bubble to deflate. The sickening movie setContinue reading “Pushing against the tide.”
Fingers posed
Fingers posed, at the ready To type some profound knowledge from my complicated Psyche. …………. Fingers posed, at the ready…. Still attempting to unravel the puzzles submerged within my mind Fingers posed, at the ready…. I am informing myself that today I will be the best version of myself that I can be Fingers posed,Continue reading “Fingers posed”
Inconsistent enteries
Inconsistent enteries Time just passing by Water seeping through the holes My heart breaks, bleeding for the souls Of those who walk oblivious To the beating of the drum Inconsistent enteries I cannot Be a number My bed awaits my slumber But the lids refuse to close As the torrent of droplets Tipple from theContinue reading “Inconsistent enteries”
Fucking covid
And yes I did swear! Fuck, fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck!!!! Thankfully I do not have covid however, the consequence of this pandemic leaves me wanting to scream obscenities across the land. Today my best friend, my soul sister, my mentor, awoke for an ordinary day. At 12.20 she was sat in the opticians chair completing her routine eyeContinue reading “Fucking covid”
CLICK- My life
”Click” the lamp illuminates the room once again. My brain will not quieten, “shuuuuuuuussshhhhhh brain please” The internal monologue, the stream of consciousness, constant chatter on overdrive. I mindlessly scroll through the reels until my eyes become heavy, that is it, sleepy time… “Click, okay ahhhh time for sleep” CLICK, “no sleep for you tonight,Continue reading “CLICK- My life”
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