The face paints the picture All prefer to see, No tears,no panic, Just robotic, “smile it’s free”. Seething solemnly, silence all encompassing, Internalising the screams, Release, release, stretch out and see, For the person gazing back at you, behind the smoky glass, Requires permission to grieve for the youth long spent. “Stop hiding, accept theContinue reading “It stays hidden”
Tag Archives: Ageing
All those good intentions
Does your day commence with all good intentions? To live, be it internally or externally, to societal expectation? Do you begin with defiance, standing firm that today you will change and follow your destiny? On this day my carefully drafted list appeared neatly on the page. I would ensure the business plan was at itsContinue reading “All those good intentions”
Anybody out there?
It has passed midnight and I am optimistic that I will actually sleep tonight. Last night was a complete no show! My frequent excursions to the bathroom, because some bright spark decided to slurp tea until late evening, put pay to restful slumber. As I actually stated that fact … a Eureka moment washed overContinue reading “Anybody out there?”
I have reached the age of … Sorry application denied
As I scrutinize every detail of my recently updated CV, I cannot help but wonder if my age has finally labelled me…. Ancient! It could be surmised that I have been exceedingly lucky to have never experienced job application rejection, until now. There is something quite raw about it. It cuts quite deep! It hasContinue reading “I have reached the age of … Sorry application denied”
Months have passed
Months have passed since my last post The trajectory of my life seemingly not as I had envisioned. I am devoid of creative expression, intellectual stimulation, instead, running unwittingly on a perpetual wheel. Each evening I prepare the page of ‘to do’s’, listings, complete with neatly positioned tick boxes. The mundane, the routine, the lifeContinue reading “Months have passed”
Grinch has not left the building, sorry
I wrote a while ago that I am the personification of the Grinch I was hoping through the passage of time that this would alter. That Grinch would dissipate and the replacement happy pants would appear, as if by magic. Unfortunately, I can report to you personally, that Grinch has not, I repeat NOT, exitedContinue reading “Grinch has not left the building, sorry”
Christmas cheer challenges menopausal Grinch.
Should I be experiencing feelings of Christmas cheer today? Well for your information, I am certainly, most definitely, NOT. I keep breathing in deeply and conversing with my inner most being, trying to extract the jolly emotion. Come on……… I try to squeeze an ounce of moderately Christmas spirit. Imagine a tightly wound coil beingContinue reading “Christmas cheer challenges menopausal Grinch.”
Yin & yang
I’m feeling significantly overwhelmed this evening with a multitude of issues. Each topic has a sliding scale of impact upon my being however, all appear to have accumulated into a huge intertwined mountain. It is a known fact that we should not address our concerns as a whole due to the enormity of the taskContinue reading “Yin & yang”
Time
Time, is it a social construct That batters our minds Seemingly the controller of our existence? The sound, tic tock, tic tick,.tic tock The waves resonate, intensify with each blink of the eye Each beat of the heart Every inhalation, exhalation Every scene, imprinted and stored Through the concept coined ‘time’ Tic tock, tic tock,Continue reading “Time”
Truth be told?
“what’s going to happen?” She weakly implores I dare not reply for the fear of creating further distress to her being. “what do you mean?” I retort as the coward evading the truth. I avoid her gaze, calmly soothing her with my hand on hers. The directive nature of her questioning invokes notions of morality-Continue reading “Truth be told?”
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