Should I say good morning in a cheery disposition or solemnly nod my head in acknowledgment of the situation? With each step trodden, the internal monologue forecast every eventuality, the door was already ajar, his presence posed in the hallway.
“She hasn’t passed urine all night, she slept straight through”
His gaze searched my visage for answers, for confirmation that he is performing the duties of a caring partner correctly.
I smiled and replied
” it is good that she slept”
His shoulders dropped slightly, his demeanor relaxing as I continued to provide some positive reinforcement to the actions he had taken.
Armed with new pillows, a raised commode seat and a mission to make her last days as comfortable as possible, I entered the room.
You cannot say good morning, she might not think it is a ‘good’ morning
“morning, how are you feeling today? Did you sleep? Have you any pain? “
That greeting, why is it so fraught with contension? Could it be she deems it is a ‘good’ morning as she awoke to a fresh new day? Is it just me that is being too self critical?
“Good morning” she whispered